In my last blog post I said that I would write about a
problem I myself have done and am witnessing more and more as of late, that of
the caretaker martyr.
What exactly is a caretaker martyr? There are many of us
that are natural born caretakers. We help all that ask or need it in anyway we
can or those closest to us. With healthy boundaries and a sense of self this
type of care taking is usually not a problem. The problem arises when the
caretaker is giving away more and more of themselves without receiving enough
care back on a regular basis.
The biggest problem with this kind of care taking is to the
caretaker themselves. With giving more than receiving the caretaker starts to
suffer and consistently sacrifices their mental and emotional health. This can
lead to feelings of emptiness, frustration, depression, anxiety, just to name a
few. The caretaker starts to fade until there is nothing left for anyone to
take. It can lead to the caretaker feeling as if they don’t deserve the same
care and are meant to suffer alone through life.
While the above is a very painful journey for the caretaker
and the main concern there is another side to this issue as well. When we martyr
ourselves to care for others we are not only causing us determent, but we are
actually causing determent to those that we are trying so hard to take care of
as well. How is this possible?
In this martyr context while trying to support, protect and
take care of others we are stopping their own growth. They are not moving on
the life path that they are meant to move down. They are not learning the life
lessons that they are supposed to be learning. And honestly it is stopping our
own growth and happiness as well. Depending on circumstances and the role of
the other person in the relationship we may also be stopping them from finding
not only themselves but someone who will love them fully.
So how do we determine if we or someone we know are a
caretaker martyr? First and most importantly, do you feel you are giving to
others more than you yourself are receiving on a constant basis? Are those you
are taking care of not advancing in their life path? *i.e. having the same
problem over and over, not changing detrimental behaviors, have addiction
issues they refuse to acknowledge, etc*. Do you resonate with the words of this
blog post? Do you feel that you don’t have someone that supports, listens to,
and gives to you among those you take care of? Because of how much you give are
you having more problems with depression, helplessness, anxiety, emptiness,
feeling like there is nothing else and this is your lot in life? Then chances are that yes you are a caretaker
martyr!
So, if this is you how do you fix it? That is one of the
hardest answers and no one answer fits everyone. Anyone who says that is the
case you need to get away from immediately 😉. The first step is to examine the situation
and those involved. Is this a child? A spouse? A family member? What affect is
it having on each person? The next step is to determine the action that needs
to be taken.
One resolution could be that better boundaries need to be
drawn by the caretaker. They need to pull back in how much they do for the
other and express that they are not receiving the care and love they need and
honestly deserve back. Another solution is to step away from the person and say
enough is enough. While this is one of the hardest steps to take, sometimes it
is the needed action to allow for all parties involved to move forward.
I am not saying run out and cut off all those you take care
of to save yourself. There are many in between solutions as well. You must make
the decision as to which solution works for you and those involved and then
make it happen. What I am saying is stop being a martyr!! Taking care of others
is fine but when you give more than you receive that is not okay and is not
living. I don’t say this with just observation but as one who was guilty of
doing the same thing. And what I have learned is it was not loving those I was
taking care of, it was not protection. It was death of soul for all involved and
definitely death of soul for me.
I leave you with this quote that always resonates with me
when thinking of this subject:
Death is not the
greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.
~ Norman Cousins
~ Norman Cousins